"Pooh"

"I weighed up the pros and cons a million times, and the results were always the same: I needed him. He was no good for me, he didn’t want me to be part of his life, but there was nothing I could do about how I felt. I loved him. I couldn’t lie to myself, though it was the one thing I wished I had the strength to do. I couldn’t forget about him. The passage of time had, if anything, made him more important to me now than ever. I couldn’t replace him with another boy without constantly comparing them to him and finding them lacking. I couldn’t move forward and I couldn’t reclaim the past. I was stuck on an ex-lover’s limbo with nothing but happy memories to keep my company."