i really do love you...

"You know it's been said that we just don't recognize the significant moments of our lives while they're happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it's usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you've realized how wrong you've been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it."

i can't understand why i said all those things. i mean, they're so out of line. i only wanted to show you how i felt, but that was not the right way to do it. i was so devastated at the time that it seemed an ordinary thing to say. the only problem is, it seems i took you for granted, and though after this, even if it did not happen, i never thought this would end up this way. i never betrayed you. but i guess now it doesn't matter anyway. i hope one day you realize why i said i did, i know i was selfish because i didn't notice how bad you would feel, and i bet you felt worse than me. hope someday you can forgive me. love you with all my heart R.